Self-Portraits, acrylic painting

This series of paintings goes back to 2016 and my experiences of grief, through psychoanalisis, self-reflection and life experience. It has evolved over the years, consistently exploring my own life story. My insights about myself were always aided by psychoanalysis, creating and reframing my narratives about my childhood with asthma and my relationships with my family and myself.

Istanbul 2023

This is an adaptation of a photograph in Istanbul. The moment was emotionally charged, as the author experienced grief about things in their past and things he foresaw coming, but at the same time was caught in a moment of joy and beauty.

Acrylic painting on canvas, unframed. 2023

152x101 cms

Available, £2900.

Self-portrait wearing a Strawberry

The strawberry comes from a previous work where it stood for desire and pain. The strawberry is now a mask that seems to be coming off. The sky and open space come as the feeling of joy enters the scene.

Acrylic painting on canvas, unframed. 2023

150x115 cms

Available, £3600.

A child is being beaten

The title comes from the homonymous Freudian text. The scene depicts the author’s recall of the only time he remembers being spanked. This moment became a revisited story through psychoanalytic exploration, linking it to an interpretation of pain and authority.

Acrylic painting on canvas, unframed. 2023

150x115 cms

Available, £3600.

My Father's eyes while I fail to breathe

This work depicts a series of references to being in the hospital as a child. Although the artist’s condition was quite manageable, the midnight visits to the hospital imposed a memory and fantasy of his early experiences.

Acrylic painting on canvas, 2023

60x40 cms

Private collection, Hastings, United Kingdom.

Self-portrait as a child with ashtma (my mother’s eyes)

Depicting himself as an adult, the title conveys how the artist feels related to his own story of illness. This branding is further signified by the hole in the torso where a lung with eyes on [his mothers eyes] peek into the body.

Acrylic painting on canvas, 2023

60x40 cms

Private collection, Oxford, United Kingdom.

Two self-portraits with Ani

Ani was the artist’s grandmother. They never had a relationship but her figure marked their whole family within a certain religious paradigm of joy and pain.

The author represents himself split between pleasure and suffering, particularly pointing to a knee surgery and a torn bicep that were a source of pain at that moment.

Acrylic painting on canvas, 2023

60x40 cms

Available, £650

Untitled.

Acrylic painting on canvas, 2018

50x40 cms

Private collection, Finland.

Split self

The character in this work seems to be unraveling into two. This split self represents the author as he was struggling to understand his own life at the moment, with the notion that he had lost himself in an unsatisfying life.

Acrylic painting on canvas,
2018

75x100 cms

Mind theory

This work refers to a famous experiment that never happened. The shady figure represents self-obscurement, as the author’s belief is most of our own psyche is unknown unless actively unveiled through any spiritual device.

Acrylic painting on canvas, 2018

75x100 cms

Private collection, Zurich, Switzerland.